fail

I don’t know why I create this blog home always writing the bad and sad things. Haiz... Just want to let myself know that I fail again. The 2nd time I need to face the failure, I hate myself, I doesn’t like to hear this kind of sound. Make myself very suffer. I always ask myself, why I will fail? Why should I fail? But, I always cannot get the answer that what I want. People like to lie to themselve, of course I am. I try to find other excuse to let myself feel better to face it, but in fact that won’t be better. I make all friend and family who take care of me disappointed. I really hope can graduate together with them, attend convocation with them, but I know, since the result release jor, what I think is impossible to be comes true. I already think what should I did if I pass, of course I had thinking what whould I did if I fail, so now, I no need to think about that jor, I gonna to make myself up and challenge it again, who am i?? Tan Chew Peng le! So easy give up de meh?? No! I won’t!! Thanks for you all de support!! Next time remembers attend my convo wo... Then I will receive many flower and present jor... hehe... Thinking positive... sad of course got la, but I know I will recover soon… 我是打不死的小强！

21st Birthday??

My 21st Birthday just pass about 1 month.. how to celebrate?? actually i quite not happy wen i notice tat i need to sit for my exam during my birthday! some more tat paper actually quite hard for me and i scare i cannot pass at all. every time hear ppl says tat birthday girl very lucky 1, but, not really lo.. the most lucky things is the exam was held in morning.. so i can enjoy my birthday after my exam.. after exam i wen to meet wan yin at pj with balloon.. they are the only 2 friend able to celebrate with me on tat day..we go to secret recipe to have our lunch.. ya lo.. wan yin haven't give me the photo take we take on tat day le.. hehe.. got to chase with her jor.. actually tat more like gathering than celebrate my birthday.. wahaha.. tats what i feel on it la.. after that i wan back to attend another activity is waiting me.. that is, going sing k with my dearest sister.. that's what i done on my birthday.. hehe..
i had went out with my college friend on the following Saturday. this also looks like a small gathering.. haha.. i doesn't like to ask many ppl out, that's y i ask some with are more closer with me de out only.. but after that i got a sudden call make our "gathering" finish so early.. haiz..
beside this 2 things i did during my birthday week, i also got wen out wit friend la.. although tat "bad taste" ppl give me a bad taste present, but stil very appreciated la.. hehe.. don angry wo.. just spread my feeling at here only.. wahaha.. and.. someone is owing me my present.. need to write now to make a evidence.. hehe.. next time i read this blog back then i will chase with her jor.. friend which close to me de also know who i'm mentioning gua?? wahaha.. k la.. that's all my "presentation" on the topic of "my 21st birthday" thank you.. hehe..

the meeting is not nice de!!

Today I went for the technical meeting for a project call UiTM at Puncak Alam. This time is the 3rd time I went to meeting. If you ask me what feeling went you attend a meeting, and then I will tell you, that is not a funny matter. DAMN BORING!! Actually I went to meeting with my colleague, we just sat there listen they talking/ telling the things which are not related to us some more need to listen they talking non-sense things. Meeting is not like what I think went I never go there before.
I still can remember the 1st time I notice that I will go to attend a meeting with my boss, I was very excited and nervous went I know it, it is because I don’t know what will going on that meeting. Actually the 1st meeting for me is ok de. During the meeting, I know what they are saying and I go there with well prepare. Although finally didn’t say anything on what I prepare, but I think I had learn a lot on the things that we won’t be learn at college.
Ok.. Now explain what is technical meeting that I understand.. Technical meeting is something like report the progress on the site. Contractor and consultant plus the representative of client sat together and having a meeting. Normally is once a month. Consultant or client have any problem can ask the contractor to do or explain what they done on site.

cry

i don know other people will feel like this or not la.. but sometimes i feel tat i wan to cry suddenly.. i also don know y it will be happen.. some people tel me tat maybe is because so stress already.. reach a certain level cannot tahan already then u will feel like tat..then i wil ask myself.. did i?? actually i don know.. some friend told me before, don keep everything inside.. u wil feel suffer.. but wat i think is, i don wan my friend sad together wit me.. because i know wat is the feeling of sadness.. i don wan my friend feel tat also.. so sometime i wil be feel like tat.. wen i face this kind of problem, i wil ask my friend to do things to make me smile and forget the things.. i know actually the sadness wont be solve so easily.. wat can i do??

bad luck

this is the 1st time i write a blog here.. but not the happy matters.. last 2 weeks ago, i had lost my handphone.. actually until now i also cannot believe the truth.. how going on?? haiz...
actually is like this de.. tat day i back from my work place, inside my car i had make call to my sis asking her location to fetch her back to home together.. wen v reach home, inside the car, i ask her remember to bring her phone which put inside the car together with mine 1.. after tat i wen to my room, put down everything and wen to hav dinner.. after dinner then only i realize tat my phone was gone!! i cannot found my phone inside my bag, and every place i usually wil put! i wen make cal to tat phone using my sis's phone but fail! for ur information, tat phone was fully charge yesterday! then y v can't make cal to tat phone?? i think got somebody purposely off the phone.. i really don know y wil be like this.. haiz.. really damn sui ar!!!